Q & A 186 – From JR in Southern California

On Wednesday June 4, 2014 at 2:08 AM – T wrote:

Wa Alaikum Asalam H,

 

That’s too bad. Yes it is.

 

In 2006 near the end of college, I travelled to Syria…then one night I became so angry at Allah and began cursing at him with all the bad things…with a terrible anger and I got very sick that night, vomitting, fever. I didn’t know why I was so mad. I think I had some depression before from lots of family emotional issues, but it was very bad that night.

 

I returned to US….Then after few weeks…I started having terrible anxiety , panic attacks….then after 1 week I had nervous breakdown. I was paranoid of everything….everything began to terrify me….and I remember my hate for Allah became even greater…and I was so angry at him because he lets us to suffer and die. The truth is…I love Allah…no matter what. La Ilaha Illala. I believe in the day of judgment. I believe in Allah. I believe in mercy. I believe in doing good deeds and being honest and fair. I believe if I sin…I say estakhfirallah and next time I try to be better.

After that happened…I got so sick..they said I was psychotic. But I was still strong…and I kept working….they gave me medications, but I didn’t like it. I try to pray…but I couldn’t…it was sooo hard…I always want to stop…I pray and I feel anger, or I feel nothing, then I become angry. My mind went in many different crazy places. I started to take anti-depressent…because was the only thing that could keep me going…also…I started psychological / emotional therapy. I met an Imam…who taught me…how to express my emotions…because I was very much intellectual , hiding my emotions because of my upbringing. He then suggested I move to Calfiornia…to go to a very unique school…to continue my emotional/ psychological therapy. I did this…and it was very helpful for me….but after doing it for 4 or 5 years, and this was very hard therapy…I realized…if I am not better by now….there must be something else wrong. And, the people there, they did not believe in God. Everything for them was chemical, biological…that’s it. I knew there was more.

 

I slowly stopped taking my antidepressent…because I wanted to face myself..everything. When I did…I look in the mirror…and I start to see myself very ugly and old…and disgusting…even though everyone tells me I am handsome and good looking. In the same time…I met spiritual muslim woman who told me I was afflicted by black magic. She told me I must remove it. I did research…and tried to find Raqi…I found one…he took lots of money….and he helped me a little bit, then he disappear and did not return my phone calls. I was very sick after that and desperate….so I did more research….and I went to Peru…there is a plant there you can drink…it cures depression, and can remove black magic. I went there for 1 month, then returned again for 2 more months….I tried everything!!! I was so desperate to feel better. Even in the jungle I was praying to Allah to help me. There were some evil people there in the jungle…the owner of the place…I believe he did some black magic on me. I left there feeling even worse….I was thinking of suicide…then I found someone else who helped me to feel a little better.

 

I returned 6 months ago from the jungle. My stomach had stopped to absorb nutrients….so I started to look different. My mind was like wind…coming and going….I couldn’t focus….my body was inflamed….from all the waswasa…..it had been for few years. Alhamdulillah…now I am doing a little better everyday. Little by little. Now I am praying and few days I am fasting….but it is still very hard for me. When I pray to Allah…I say…Ya Allah…will you please help me….then I become sooo angry, now I stop myself before I curse at Allah or get too angry, but the anger is still there. I wish it would go away. Still I look in mirror and I see empty disgusting thing looking at me….and I want to hurt myself. I DO NOT act on this feeling. I feel as if there is something blocking the Love of Allah coming into my heart….which would make everything feel easy and peaceful again.

 

In my life….I haven’t gotten married yet, there were women who loved me, but I didn’t love them back. I couldn’t feel love for them. I left my beautiful job..I had great projects, but someone came and destroyed them. Now…Alhamdulillah….I live with my friend….and everyday…I go for a walk…and I pray…and I eat and sleep….that’s it. I am trying to become strong again in my mind iA so I can enter life again. After all this experience…I have become master of psychological / emotional therapy and have helped many people.

 

I would like to live again iA. On the inside…I feel dead. I am happy person…but I feel dead. My feelings…feels blocked. When I walk…I only hear waswas…sound like it is my own belief….but I know deep in myself…this is all lies. It say…you are ugly, you are old, you will never succeed. EstakhfirAllah. My body feel very tight. For years my nervous system was twitching, but now Alhamdulillah…it has gone..just very little. I had stomach issues with my body not absorbing nutrients, but iA its getting a little better. I am constipated also in my stomach. I go to doctor they tell me I am ok. It is hard to focus…always I want to walk away from what is good for me.

 

After all of this….I come to think…this is maybe Sihr…and it was not removed in Peru. They told me it was gone. It was all magicians there.

 

I pray that Allah will heal me iA. I know the healing will only come through him. It is difficult waiting for the healing. I am only human, but iA I will be patient for his healing which is the best and only true healing. Ameen.

 

Thank you for reading this.

 

When someone needs help…they tell their story many times. Until it is heard by the one who may help them. iA.

 

Could you help me to locate Raqi or any help you can suggest.

 

I will continue to listen to the recordings iA.

 

I pray I can have life back again soon iA.

 

Thank you.

On Wednesday, June 4, 2014 5:24 PM – ruqyah.net wrote:
After reading what you have gone through, I posted your story and some one had responded for you. I hope Syma’s suggestion below helps you. I also shared your story with my student S and insyaAllah he will be contacting you to help you. Can I have your phone number? Wassalam

On June 4, 2014 Syma wrote to T:

“JR I had the same problem…there were many interested guys and they all just disappeared I like in South in USA and could not find any raaqui here in US. However, I have just leaned about some treatments HIJAMA for curing this. I have almost the same story as yours.

This is what I discovered, check http://www.fiqh.org They are in Arlington/Dallas Texas I should also tell you about this website http://mshabazz33.wordpress.com/2013/08/13/how-to-perform-ruqya-on-yourself-information/ Recently, I used it for myself and I must say it is effective. Read the entire text and follow the methods to perform ruqya on yourself. You might feel the following if your are affected. Click here http://daarussalaam.com/B-STEPS/Bindex02.htm and scroll down for SYMPTOMS ON / AFTER HEARING May Allah SWT cure all us Muslims and keep us from the acts of shaytaan”

On Friday June 13, 2014 at 8:19 PM – ruqyah.net wrote:

Assalamualaikum JR, please let me know when are you coming and how many days you plan to be in the Bay Area so insyaAllah we can arrange the time with my busy schedule. Where is your friend live? Wassalam

On Friday, June 13, 2014 9:00 PM – JR wrote:

“WaAlaikum Assalam H, I will be arriving this Sunday night iA. I will be there from Monday until Friday iA. I will have my car with me since I will be driving there. I will get back to you asap with the location.

Thank you so much for offering your time. It is like life or death to me….so thank you so much for your time and help iA. Thank you.”

On Sunday June 15, 2014 at 4:31 PM – JR wrote:

“Salamualakum, i will be staying in dublin, pleasanton area.  Arriving tonight. Thank you.

 

On Sunday June 15, 2014 at 10:27 PM – ruqyah.net wrote:

Waalaikumussalam, have a good rest. I work in Oakland Airport area not far from Dublin so insyaAllah will see you between 4 & 5 I will come with my husband S and my student S insyaAllah. Can you please text me your friend’s address in Dublin? See you tomorrow afternoon insyaAllah. Wassalam

 

On Sunday June 15, 2015 at 11:00 PM – JR wrote:

“Wassalamualaikum Alhamdulillah, I just arrived. I will be staying with friend at. This is the address for the hotel. let me know eta is. My friend’s plane lands at 10:50 in San Jose. I should be there by 11:30ish. Fremont Marriott Silicon Valley in Fremont, CA 94538.”

“Thank you JazakAllah I look forward meetig you all and shifa iA. Have a good night.”

On Sunday June 15, 2015 at 11:30 PM – ruqyah.net wrote:

It is not a good idea to do it at the hotel & we need some one from your side (your friend) to be with you so we need your friend address OK InsyaAllah see you tomorrow.

On Sunday June 15, 2015 at 11:45 PM – JR wrote:

“Salam. S told me he had a place to do it…I think he said his cousin’s home who was travelling. Also…no one mentioned to me about bringing someone from my side. My friend is on business trip, he doesn’t know why I am here. IA khair. I can have someone on phone or skype but no one mentioned this to me. Khair iA.”

On Sunday June 15, 2014 at 11:55 PM – ruqyah.net wrote

OK I will talk to you tomorrow have a good rest OK.

On Sunday June 15, 2014 at 11:57 PM – JR wrote:

“OK … I will iA. Thanks.”

On Monday June 16, 2014 at 11:41 AM – ruqyahl.net wrote:

OK will do it at our son’s house in Hayward. Will let you know the address later. I don’t remember but its on West XXXX and XXXXX.

On Monday June 16, 2014 at 11:45 AM – JR wrote:

“OK. Thank you iA.”

On Monday June 16, 2014 at 3:31 PM – ruqyah.net wrote:rt to go to Hayward go to West XXXXX & XXXXX as soon as we get there I txt you the house # sorry I forget the #.

On Monday June 16, 2014 – JR wrote:

“OK … I will head there now iA.”

ruqyah.net wrote:

000A W XXXX.

JR wrote:

“Thanks … on my way iA.”

ruqyah.net wrote:

Are you close by? Its in the complex the Number is not shown from the street.

JR wrote:

“Yes… Im very close.”

“Im here, parking.”

ruqyah.net wrote:

OK we are waiting just coming in OK.

On Monday June 16, 2014, ruqyah on JR done for the first time for three hours at my son’s house in Hayward.

I placed my right hand on JR’s head while I recited verses of qur’an and approximately after about fifteen minutes I felt pressured from JR’s head to my right hand so based on my experience, I am convinced that there were jinns in Jr’s body. I stopped reciting and started to try to communicate with the jinn but instead of answering to my questions, JR was making movement from his shoulders, his feet, his body and his hands. His fingers were making the sign as the symbul of the Syaitan, Subhanallah. I patiently trying to communicate but the Syaitan was refusing cooperating with me, instead he was whipering to JR the following and when I asked his name the Syaitan told JR that his name was Ja’far.

I hate your people; I am not ready, this is playing around; you wasting your time, I saw his eyes, face, I am going crazy.

Because the jinn/syaitan were not cooperating, I recited verses of qur’an to burn them then after three hours we stopped. It was already almost 7 PM so I texted my son to order us two large veggie pizza on his way home from work. My husband came home and brought two large veggie pizza for us. I introduced JR to him then we eat pizza together. Before we left my son’s house, I told JR to come back tomorrow to continue the ruqyah and for him to come at 1 PM.

On Tuesday June 17, 2014, ruqyah on JR done for the second time and it also took three hours.

The second time I did not recite verses of Qur’an myself, instead I played the audio lecturing the jinn/syaitan that whey they are doing is dzolim (unjust) and if they continued Allah swt will punish them and hell fire is their place. While JR was sitting on the floor and listening to the audio, approximately thirty minutes later, JR started showing us the reactions by moving around his body, hand, feet and the jinn/syaitan was answering to my questions. When I asked him what his name, his said “you know my name!” I then remember he said Ja’far yesterday so I started calling him Ja’far. I started to communicate and the following were said by the Ja’far.

“He is ugly, he is old, his face is wrinkle, I hate this person, he can’t be free, It isn’t easy, this is playing around, he is wasting his time, I saw his face, crazy – this is crazy, is not going to work, this is not working, I am going crazy, you are ugly, is not working, I am too strong, his mine, you are stupid, I have been here long time, eight (8) years, there is no hope for him, I hate your people, I am not ready.”

After lecturing Syaitan Ja’far, I tried to convince him to convert to Islam. He did agree but even after so many times recited the shahadat, the Syaitan’s color was still not white yet. At least this time, the second time ruqyah, the jinn/syaitan were talking and answering my questions.

Ruqyah.net: Ja’far, how many are they inside JR’s body

Syaitan Ja’far: Seventeen (17).

Ruqyah.net: Are they all male?

Syaitan Ja’far: Sixteen male and one female

Ruqyah.net: Where are they in JR’s body, bring them up I need to talk to them. I need to talk to the lady Jinn.

Syaitan Ja’far: Go ahead talk to her, she is here already.

Ruqyah.net: Hi what is your name?

Female Jinn: Sausan. I am the nice one.

Ruqyah.net: Good, Sausan what is your religion?

Jinn Sausan: I am Christian

Ruqyah.net: How about the rest and what are their names?

Jinn Sausan: Jafrit (Ja’far), Akbar, Ilhas, Inhas, Rado, Batu, Christopher, Hine, mar and Anwar

Ruqyah.net: OK Sausan, I am here to help you and to help the rest of them in JR’s body. Look, what you and the rest of you doing are unjust and if you stay in JR’s body, Allah swt will punish you and put you in hell so I am here to help you. How long you have been in JR’s body?

Jinn Sausan: Eight years.

Ruqyah.net: OK now I am going to help you to save you all OK, Allah swt will give you all if you taubatan nasohah sincerely from your heart regardless what have done in the past eight years. Once you ask Allah forgiveness, Allah swt will forgive you all and you will go to heaven as long as you do not repeat the same. Allah swt created you to worship Him and to live on earth along side human being and not inside JR’s body. So I am here to help you to be free OK. You did not know better then because you were sent by the magician but don’t worry, after you recite shahadat, Allah swt will forgive you and you and the rest of you can leave to be free OK.

Jinn Sausan: OK

Ruqyah.net: Sausan, please tell everybody to repeat after me reciting shahadat OK. Hurry up tell every one that I am here to help them so they can be free OK

Jinn Sausan: OK, OK.

Ruqyah.net: Tell me once everybody are up and ready.

Jinn Sausan: OK they are ready now.

Ruqyah.net: I then recite the shahadat and the 16 jinns and one syaitan (Ja’far) repeated after me. After recited three times followed by saying “Allahu Akbar” three times then I asked Sausan what color was she and she said white then I asked her to check the rest of them and to tell me what color were they.

Jinn Sausan: white, white I am white. There are three white, one yellow and one red. Ja’far is red.

Ruqyah.net: Sausan, not all of them recite their shahadat from their hearts. Please tell them that the only way they can be saved is they need to recite from their heart so please tell them to recite it again and do it sincere.

Jin Sausan: OK, OK.

 

 

 

 

Ruqyah.net: What is your job and what others’ jobs also in JR’s body?

Jinn Sausan: Two black magic. For him not to get married and to steal energy to make him die but a life

Ruqyah.net: Who sent you to JR’s body?

Jinn Sausan: MT

Ruqyah.net: Who is MT? Where he is from?

Jinn Sausan: He is from Siria

Ruqyah.net: Are there black magic in JR’s body?

Jinn Sausan: Yes

Ruqyah.net: Where are black magic in JR’s body?

Jinn Sausan: His finger was then pointing to JR’s stomach and his head. Its tied up with the string.

Ruqyah.net: What kind of black magic were done on JR?

Jinn Sausan: Bone in food – Yogurt dish, the Sirian’s food.

 

 

 

On Tuesday June 17, 2014 at 8:24 PM – JR wrote:

Salamualaikum Aunt H. Thank you very much for your help and time and your great effort you have given me. Also to your very kind husband and to S and your son for there time. Im very thankful to you like someone who was drowning and was saved. I want to be honest though with you, I feel like giving up. I feel terrible to leave like this. The first session we had when you were reading the Quran, I felt so good because I could feel the difference between myself and the thing and I could feel it being burned. I felt so very hopeful after, I felt happy and lighter. It gave me hope in my life. It proved that it was working. I never thought it could happen. like this. Today though, was very hard…it was more talking and asking questions…I didnt feel like the questions and answers were helpful and I couldnt feel it being burned like the first time. The first way was much better. To leave feeling this way makes me feel very hopeless after having this for 8 years and coming now to the Quran for healing. Can we continue to try using the Quran like the first time which worked well? I have 100 dollars which I can give as a gift. Im know you deserve more, im sorry, thats all i have now and i borrowed some to come here. Its no problem. Also, i am an engineer and was very successful before and IA when I am working again I promise I will not forget you. My word is strong. IA. Just to be honest I feel really bad now. I dont know who to turn to other than Allah…im just waiting for him to make it easy for me IA. Can we please keep trying? I dont know what else to do. I want to be one of your success stories. If i didnt feel it worked the first time, I wouldnt ask you, but I know it did. Thank you.
On Tuesday June 17, 2014 at 9:54 PM – ruqyah.net wrote:

Waalaikumussalam JR, can you come to our house in Pacifica at 10 AM? InsyaAllah I will recite on you like on the first day but don’t be late we are going to very busy tomorrow. The address is at 000 Xxxxxxxx Circle, Pacifica. See you at 10 AM tomorrow insyaAllah. Wassalam