Q & A 1 – From Sana

Salaam, I am a 33 year married woman with one 6 year old son.  My story of life somehow might be different from all other stories and till today I never understood the fact of things ever happened to me during my whole life. My story goes back to my childhood when I was only 6 or maybe younger. Let me start what I experienced in life one by one: Experience 1 – Since childhood one dream was always repeating for me over and over. I used to see the same dream of 3 women which I know they were jinns. They were tall, grey, with tail, feet different, long hair and same looking like each other. They only used to stand next to each other and watch me. They used to close their hands to each other like when we want to pray. After some mix things were happening in my dream which I can’t explain but I know its jinn. I used to have exactly the same dream over and over in my childhood and I used to scare a lot because it was making some kind of feeling after waking up.

Experience 2 – At the age of 6 I used to play with my neighbor children outside of the house but always there was one house next to our house which I always was scared of entering into it and I didn’t know why. I allowed myself to only enter till in the yard of the house but not inside the house.

Experience 3 – When I was 8, one night we were guest in my aunt house and there was a time once the electricity went off and I was alone in the room while everybody else was in kitchen so when I wanted to go to the kitchen from the room as it was all dark I decided to touch the wall so I know where I am going but in the dark my hand touched another hand coming out of the wall. The hand was big, with very thin and long fingers and very very long and sharp nails. Suddenly when I touched that hand, it was like that hand also was shocked of touching my hand and then it tried to remove his hand from my hand and disappeared.

Experience 4 – Around the age of 13 to 16 I used to always hear someone calls my name loudly in the house.  Most of the time a woman.

Experience 5 – (This experience felt by my family members as well) Around the age of 13 to 16 we used to hear people walking at our second level while we knew all of us are in the first level.  It was so much happening that it became normal for us. Also we used to hear the cry of the baby in the house while we know we don’t have any baby. Many times I used to smell the urine from all over the house so strongly but could never find the source of smell but smell was so much strong in the air, still now even sometimes I feel it. Suddenly it comes and suddenly it goes.

Experience 6 – At the age of 18 as I wanted to study and our house was crowded, my neighbor offered me to study in her house since she was a very old woman and she was alone and she was a faithful woman.  This house was the one that I used to always scare to enter when I was a little girl. When I entered the house the same feeling came back to me and I didn’t like the house but still went inside and start living there.

Experience 7 – At the age of 18 in that house one night I was telling to the old lady to wake me up when she wakes up for her night prayers so that I can review my studies.  She woke me up at 4 AM. I woke up in my bed sitting and trying to review my lessons but was feeling very sleepy. Suddenly I felt asleep and I saw a dream; I dreamt I am in a park sitting in a bench and one bench in front of me one woman and man sitting facing back to me as I couldn’t see their faces. I knew they were jinns. Then I saw many many baby cats coming around me and licking me and they were hungry and I was feeling I wish I had some food to give them.  Suddenly I woke up my eyes were wide open and I felt that someone is next to me sitting on my head, I thought it must be the old lady coming back to wake me again but when I turned my head I saw she was praying in other room; then I thought then who is this one sitting next to me. I realized the person was a man. My hand was in his hand and he was stroking my hand. I tried to see his face but couldn’t, just could see he is wearing a long black abaya and a long black hat same like a triangle hat on his head. Then after that I felt very odd, I started losing control over my body and my brain. Then I heard a lot of noises and voices. Same like my ear was catching a radio station. Many women and men were talking to each other but I couldn’t understand which language it was. Then I heard a very noisy wind in my ears and I started feeling very bad as I felt my face is deforming. I felt my chin was going to the left side of my face from its original place. I knew that man was trying to be kind with me and even though I couldn’t see his face but I knew he was smiling to me.  But that feeling was very bad and I couldn’t tolerate that feeling so I wanted to recite Bismellah or Ayat ul Kursi but I was so much out of control that I couldn’t even think about anything. That thing was totally controlling my brain. I knew that man wanted to have sex with me and came with a friendly purpose. After few minutes in that status, suddenly everything disappeared and I quickly sat up but still I was feeling my face is deformed and I was feeling my chin in the left side of my face and not in its original place. I was so scared that my face is changed so I went to see myself in the mirror. In mirror my face was fine but still I was not feeling my chin in its right place.  This feeling was with me until the mid day of that day. And little by little I felt my chin came back to its original place in my face. After that night, my every night became same. If I was little getting sleepy and losing my conscious, that thing would come and I used to hear that wind in my ear and I knew that it is happening and I used to sit up and not to sleep. I became desperate; I used to read Quran, Ayat al Kursi, keep Quran with me but no use. This thing was happening to me all the nights. One night I came back from outside to home and the old lady was not at home. I had the key to the yard but I didn’t have the key to enter the main house so I entered to the yard and started looking from the window inside the house.  From behind the curtains I saw the shadow of an old woman walking very strange way and drinking something from the bottle. I knew that it can’t be my neighbor because I rang the bell several times and if she was there she would open the door. Finally I decided to leave that house but that thing in the night always stayed with me. It became less but it used to come every once in a while. The feeling is such as my spirit is coming out of my body.  I clearly feel my spirit is coming out starting from my feet and when is reaching to my back then becomes intolerable; it is exactly like I am dying so I struggle to not to let it happen.  I never let this thing happen to me to see what will happen next but I know this that if I let this happen then the wind which I hear in my ears gets stronger and then I start seeing everything, all the creatures from different worlds and sometimes I scare so I don’t want to go further with this happening. This is happening since I am 18 and still happens.  But for the last year it didn’t happen as my husband uncle is very faithful man and he prayed for me and this didn’t happen ever since, but it is now in my hand, any time if I am willing to see and happen, then it happens.

Experience 8 – Once I dreamt I am guided by 2 jinns to inside of the earth. They were taking me to show me their city and their houses and their world. They accompanied me then we reached to a place very big, full of corridors and full of people, women, children, men; all dressed like old times (abayas) and I knew they are not humans; they came all out to watch me. Then I was accompanied by those 2 jinns (which they looked like friend to me) to their king. He was a very clean man; very beautiful with old, expensive clothes. Then those 2 jinns stood back; their king started talking to me, but he was not actually talking but I understood what he is telling to me. He asked his servants to bring an old chest, he opened the chest in front of me, inside the chest was full of old jewellery, the sparkle of those jewelleries filled the room and I couldn’t remove my eyes from them. The king asked me: all these jewelleries can be yours under one condition; and I asked what condition; he said you will never go back and will always stay here.  He said the choice is yours and you decide now.  I thought and felt I can’t live my whole life here so I told him I want to go back and suddenly I woke up. Experience – 9 I used to have small dog at home always keeping him in the basement, where our bathroom was there too. One time when I was at the shower, I hear my dog is barking so much and I came to see what happened and I saw my dog standing in one corner and staring at the other corner straight and barking, exactly looked like that he is watching some stranger and barking on him.

Experience 10 – When I got married, at the beginning of my marriage, one morning when my husband left to work, I was alone at home and I was watching TV, the house was big. When I was watching TV, suddenly I saw a very big and tall man with old clothes (Abaya) walked through our small hall to one of the bedrooms, I saw him from behind the window of the hall.  I was very scared that I wanted to run out of the house but I couldn’t. Then I managed to talk to that man. I started telling him: whoever that you are, please do not try to show yourself to me again because I do not want that and if you try to show yourself to me like this again, my heart can stop and I can die even. Then I never saw him again so clearly while I was awake.

Experience 11- When I gave birth to my son, my mom was with me for 2 months; after she left to her city; and one night when I was alone with my son and my husband was travelling.  It was at 4 AM; when suddenly I woke up and I saw somebody is sitting behind me (I was sleeping on one side) and his hand was on my back and he was breathing in a scary way (such as if he is dying); that time he didn’t have control over me and I was able to freely turn and see his face or even talk to him but I avoid doing that because I knew from his breathing his face is very scary so my eyes were open and he was not leaving.  I knew he wanted to have sex with me. I still was having my period cycle from my childbirth and I was thinking I already recited Ayat ul Kursi, so what he is doing here.  Then suddenly he disappeared.

Experience 12 – When my son was 2 or 3 years old, one night that my husband was travelling and I called my friend to stay with me that night.  At 5 AM, I woke up and saw the side that my son is sleeping is fully wet. I thought maybe my son urinated but I checked him and he was all dry. Then I saw almost 80% of the bed is all heavily wet from up to down and I smell it, there were no smell. Then I saw under the bed is so much water that looked like a lake, whoever poured water on our bed, he did it at the same time because the water was still licking from the mattress down the bed and it created a pond.  All around the bed, all the walls were dry. My friend was shocked. I was told from 2 different persons that the jinns wanted to joke with me and have fun.

Experience 13 – One day I came home from outside and I saw all of my house is having steam (like sauna) all the walls, doors, windows having steam on them, that much of steam that was turning to water and pouring on the floor. I thought might be from the bathroom that we forgot to close the water, but surprisingly the bathroom was totally dry and there were no sign of steam in the bathroom.

I should inform you that my father family have history of seeing Jinns and interacting with them. My grandmother took shower with them in public bathroom in the middle of the night. But it was them who approached her. My father I think had some experience with them but he never talked about it with me. Also I should tell you I see dreams that turn to reality, most of my dreams are meaningful and some of them tell me what will happen in future. Sometimes I see people who are going to die soon in my dreams and I know they will die soon. And even I’ve seen wars which took place in the world in my dreams before it happened. I’ve seen Prophen Mohammed (PBUH), Prophet Jesus & jibrael angel in my dreams too. I saw them all together in the night of Jesus was born; I never forget that holy dream. I really want to know why I used to see Jinns since my childhood. What they want from me and why I see several of them, men, women. I see myself capable of spiritual activities but still I feel I am not pure enough and I am not a real Muslim; I know that there are a lot of things which is wrong in me and I have to correct myself.  Can you help me? Can you tell me why since childhood I am this way? Thank you